I have orientation at 9:30 and im panicking

I have really bad social anxiety and Im not sure if i can handle being separated from my family all day during orientation. January is getting closer and just thinking about moving out on my own is terrifying. Im coming from a tiny community college where everyone knows everybody. I even have casual conversations with the dean sometimes.

Im really bad at socializing because I was homeschooled and sometimes when I try to make conversation I stutter and get really nervous and end up sounding weird. Being in crowded spaces also makes me panic, especially if i don’t know anyone and don’t know where Im going. I feel like this is about to be a huge reality check for me and I don’t know what to expect.

I don’t even know what the point of this post is but i wanted to get it off my chest. If anyone has any insight tips or advice I would appreciate it. My heart is racing, my throat is tight and I feel sick.