I went out last night.. and drank 0% beers 🥳

TW: Mention of cancer

I (f24) usually go out and go way overboard when it comes to drinking, i don’t know my limits and i always seem to push them in a frenzy to completely eliminate my, at times - crippling anxiety. This always leads to me making a complete fool off myself and making my partner sad. I’ve wanted to stop for a while because of the bed inducing anxiety that each hangover brings, it sends me down a rabbit hole of thinking about what i could have done because i have no/ limited recollection and it takes me around a week to recover from this. I’ve always had a fear of missing out and i promised myself i’d drink less or measure my intake, but i CANNOT help but push myself.

I read some statistics from UF Gov which seriously gave me a push to stop for good - In data collected from 118 studies, light drinkers were found to increase their breast cancer risk by 4%, moderate drinkers by 23%, and heavy drinkers by 60%.

This breaks my heart, i have a four year old, i could never forgive myself.

However, a 0% Gin and Stella was all i needed! I was still able to get up and dance.. i even threw it down on the karaoke.

I will not drink today! or again.

68 days sober.