need help from anyone who does hitless runs

so, my question is, was hitless easy for you once you started rl1, or was it a long process? did you ever feel like you wouldn’t be able to do it at first?

my point is, once you recognize and know how to handle every boss move, does hitless come naturally?

personally, i don’t feel like i can do it. i’ve done all kinds of rl1 runs (most of my hours are in ER), and i may know the bosses’ moves like the back of my hand, but i'll still ALWAYS feck up. it’s usually just one hit in the entire fight, but never zero. it’s like my brain sabotages me every time.

going deeper on this… my parents always compared me to other people, even their other kids. they constantly told me i was 🤏 this close to perfection in everything i did, but never actually perfect at anything. that’s a big part of why i dropped every hobby and activity, but that’s a whole other anger story. the point is, i feel like it’s tattooed in my mind that i’ll always be just 10 cents short, and it’s fkn me up me now.

i know you’ll probably say i can do it if i’m only taking one hit, but that’s not what i need to hear. instead, i want to know if you ever had a similar mindset before actually pulling off hitless fights.

thanks for coming to my ted talk lol, i genuinely want to know and would appreciate any insight 🤝