It feels like everybody has gone insane. I feel alone in a world that's starting to not make sense anymore.

It makes me want to pull my hair out. When did everybody become so fucking conspiratorial, rejecting facts and choosing to feel comfy rather than chasing what's right? The smartest people I know are sounding like lunatics these days. Just recently, my aunt, a renowned specialist surgeon, spoke about how they put insect shavings (roach flour) into our food to add protein "because of climate change". I told her this is true for chocolate (there is an accepted level of microscopic insect bits in chocolate). She says it's in our rice and lentils.

My uncle, a world-renowned, multi-degree holding, specialist surgeon, is anti-vaccination. Both of them tell my family constantly about 'alternative medicine', and my parents, both doctors, lap it up. All of them are at the same time, in denial of climate change.

My friends, university graduates, all of a sudden are in support of 'whatever it takes', when it comes to that specific conflict in the Middle East. That the ends justify the means re: hostages are ok, attacks against civilians are ok, etc. People on both sides, with the same reasoning, excusing themselves. I tell them that's extremism, they tell me I'm overthinking it and being a coward.

A plane crashed carrying doctors to a conference. The most popular sentiment I came across by far was that they were killed off by 'the government' to stop the cure for cancer. Which government? Why?

Why is everything such a fucking conspiracy, I swear people used to be normal. I've lost my family, essentially. Nobody makes sense, everybody's actively chosen to be hoodwinked, or plain refuse to pay attention to how things actually are. I'm literally just a normal dude who believes in sensible shit. And everyone around me is just leaning into extreme caricatures of their beliefs. Is this really how people in the middle ages were when they executed 'witches'? Is it me? Is my perception of the world tinted? I don't know.

I just really thought we were smarter than this. We're meant to know better, man. I hate this, I feel like an alien in my own home. In my own communities. I can't even talk to my family because the mental barrier they put up bleeds into their lifestyles. Same for my friends. For what? Saying no to all violence, saying yes to modern medicine, saying no to government cancer conspiracies? Be fucking real dude. I'm so sick of it man, it really weighs on me. Ugh.