Stupid me.

So, I was always convinced that no matter how long my list goes, she was always going to be number 1 until I made this discovery.
This was someone who literally help me up with nice words and plans that laid the very foundation of my purpose. I became a friend to her friends and relatives until things went south. In between, we could talk at times until she couldn't around 2022 there by.

At alone times, I could visit her socials to see how she was doing without leaving a indication of my visit. One day I met her former schoolmate in Eastleigh and amid the pleasantries, I asked about her. She told me that the lady had met a rich guy through her sister who works at an insurance company in Nairobi- to add a little spice it she sayed that she now do crazy stuff on only fans in a bid to raise money for further studies in Asia. That sh*t hits me so badly forcing me to make contact. ( bwana you can not save a woman who has developed courage of getting naked on camera for money)

She hanged up several times until this fine Sunday morning she decided to call back. She told me that she has found better way to live a nice beautiful life and has no tye attraction I found in her character. We can't be anything, in fact we shouldn't even talk for that alone can put me in danger. A call that lasted 64 minutes, left me feeling so traditional, backward, unaware of new things- it was like I am actually living in a different planet. I felt very stupid.