Do you ever indulge in fantasies or does that make it worse?

Even when my LEs are really bad/intense, I cannot allow myself to indulge in any kind of fantasy surrounding my LO. I’ve tried once or twice thinking it would make things easier and help me get over it, but it only made things so much worse. I know that fantasies are your own and they don’t hurt anyone and they can be a good coping mechanism sometimes, but I personally feel they worsen my delusions, obsession, and sadness and there’s no benefit to it at all. It really sucks though, because I’ll compulsively want to, and trying to distract myself is such a chore.

Is this something you all struggle with at all?