Please help me in escaping my abusive home. Trigger Warning: mention of suicide

Hello Kolkata bashi. First of all I would like to say that I'm extremely embarrassed of sharing this here and asking for help but this is my last chance to go away from my abusive home. For context, I live in an extremely toxic and abusive environment created by my brother. My parents died when I was infant. I have been raised by my grandmother but my brother turned out to be very abusive since he was a teenager. Not only he's emotionally abusive but physically abusive as well to me and my grandmother. Because of all the abuse I have been battling depression and few other mental illnesses for few years. I've also grown up into someone who's extremely suicidal. When I was in college I thought that once I get a job I'll be finally able to go out from here but Covid started and my college didn't provide any placement either. I tried applying in various jobs but all my efforts went into vain. I kept applying but I never got anything. Fed up, I have started a tiffin service very recently. I don't have my parents to support me. They died when I was an infant. I literally don't have anyone to support me. I have my grandmother who is a dementia patient and I have to look after her. I'm literally spending all our saving for her medical expenses so our financial situation right now is terrible. My situation is really making me more and more suicidal day by day. Idk for how long I can hold on. Hence, I kindly request everyone to at least search for my tiffin service which is named as Moner Bhojon on Google so that its SEO goes up. Also, if anyone need tiffin service in affordable rate in Ballygunge, vip bazar, picnic garden, kasba please do contact me. I'd be forever grateful to anyone who helps me out. Please help me out. I genuinely and desperately want help.

Note: This post is not for karma farming or anything like that. Neither I'm here to promote my business because I have no fear of death.I can unalive myself any time I want. I want to take care of my grandmother. This is the reason I'm here seeking for help so that I can earn a bit and escape this place along with my grandmother