What's your thought on people who took their own lives?
I might got controversial opinion on this serious topic but I sincerely ask you to hear me out and try to understand. Just don't hate on me please. It's probably the only place where I can share my mind and I really don't mean any harm by anything I wrote below.
Like, I consider myself as pretty empathetic person, feelings are really important in my life and I always take them seriously but I'm just not able to understand why people are committing suicide to the point where I can't even feel sorry for such people. When I hear about incidents like this with Angus Cloud* I'm always staying completely indifferent. One of the two most important rules in my life is not giving up no matter what happens and where I am. Like no matter how many times or how hard would it be but I just think people should always keep pushing and fight for their lives. This thought is just drilled deeply in my mind. Probably because of this I am not able to sympathise with suicides. Life is just too precious thing to give it up. I will admit that it's pretty extremist belief.
I got two situations in my life that made me wonder about this:
- Some time ago we were talking about The Sorrows of Young Werther in my class and our teacher asked us for our opinion is suicide a sign of bravery or cowardliness. Everybody except me told it's brave of them to decide to kill themselves because "they don't know what comes after death", at first it seems reasonable but when you think about it nor do we know what the future holds. So I think their argument was kind of bad one, I can use the same logic and apply it to my side. I think it's more of being a coward, instead of facing their problems or handle their emotions they are just running away, like it's of course not always the case but you get what I mean. Like I said before life is just too precious and it's always worth to try again.
- Recently I saw a post on Angus Cloud death and I shared my thought that I just don't feel anything anymore cuz I just saw too many cases like that. Some lady was really angry about this so I explained why: I saw too many situations like this so I just became anesthetized, I didn't have any connection with him and I didn't even knew about this man existence till he died, there's just no point in crying over someone I didn't even know and I just have my personal reasons (which are my beliefs). I think it's enough to justify myself and I don't understand why people still blamed me. She then just kept on saying I'm unempathetic and don't know anything about depression and just judged my whole person. I told her that empathy has few different forms, that I have my own experience with being depressive (nobody ever confirmed that I used to have depression but I remember I got returning over and over symptoms, and my family actually tried to convince me to go on therapy or something so yeah, I was seeing psychologist for almost a year and got rid of this) and that I want to study psychology to actively help people with their problems instead of just staying by and feeling sorry for them. I genuinely think it's my vocation, I just feel it.
So, it's my point of view, like I said it's controversial. I don't really feel like I'm the wrong one here cuz I just got my own opinion and reasons. Like there's almost never one correct thought, am I right? I want to hear someone else opinion on mine and on this topic. Thanks for understanding
*he probably committed suicide recently by overdosing drugs, I'm not sure if it was suicide for sure but it's one of the possibilities. I think his father died few days earlier or something so it might be his reason