I'm craving a boyfriend

I (21F) have never had a boyfriend before. No talking stages or anything. Only very recently I began to seriously open up for dating to search for a boyfriend. I am in no rush, I am taking my time and exploring myself as well as what is out there.

Now, I don't know whether it's because I recently started birth control as a result of this, but lately I have just seriously been craving a boyfriend. Going on dates, making him his favourite food, having sex every day (I've been horny too lately), having both deep and empty conversations, calling him handsome,being alone together, running errands together, trying new foods together, discover different countries together, cuddle together, crack jokes together, have him eat me out for hours, listening to his stories and his opinions about things, but also talk things out together, the whole communication thing and taking care of each other, listening to each other, checking up on each other.

It's all I think about. I need to smell testosterone around me. I've never been this close with a man ever and I would like to so bad. then again, I don't want to rush things, it could take years.

For now I'm stuck with boyfriend ASMRs lmao