i once convinced myself i had antisocial personality disorder and went to get EVALUATED for it

i legit almost ruined everything for myself, my medical records and how mental health professionals would view me in the future. yep i always feel crazy whenever i have to tell psychologists or literally anyone else cause genuinely WHO DOES THIS?!

im 23 now, i was 20 when this happened. i had fully convinced myself that i had ASPD aka i genuinely believed i was a sociopath who felt nothing. i convinced myself i had no empathy, that i couldn’t feel guilt and remorse. it was a crazy obsession to say the least. i’d even read about the symptoms of ASPD and i would subconsciously act like a person with this disorder, but to me that was just how i believed i was. cause i was so convinced that’s who i was. when i went to get evaluated for ADHD/autism which i don’t have, i mentioned my “lack of empathy” and they did a whole new personality disorder evaluation where they diagnosed me with unspecified personality disorder. i legit sat and lied throughout the whole evaluation, but i also believed that was the real me. it was so fucked up..

last year i finally managed to do a redo evaluation. it took SO long to have an evaluation made cause they literally thought i was a crazy narcissist or something. anyway i got diagnosed with borderline personality disorder which is an accurate diagnosis. then a bit more than a month ago i got diagnosed with OCD and i looked back on my ASPD era as i like to call it and i can definitely see how OCD played a huge part in me convincing myself i was a sociopath..

anyway has this happened to anyone else or am i just insane?