Yesterday was actually… normal??

Ever since October first, I always planned on just binging on Halloween, from the second I woke up I would allow myself anything, I didn’t care how uncomfortable I’d get, I just wanted it so bad.

But when the day came, I ate a pretty normal breakfast, normal lunch, normal dinner and lots of snacks in between and candy ofc!! I didn’t binge, sure I was full but I just overate (even non disordered people do that all the time lol) and I was even able to exercise and take a nice walk without feeling like I’m dying! I had such a good sleep too.

I wish everyday could be like yesterday, but alas I’m back to restricting again, feeling horrible and not sleeping. and I probably won’t get another day where I can eat whatever I want until thanksgiving lolll