This is a hopeless community.

I post things and it's lost to the depths of the internet. Idk what I need. I'm lost on this journey called life. I weep. I cry out my soul, never to be heard. I have pushed everyone I have ever loved far away from me. I don't dare speak to them, only push them further away. I have made the hell that is around me. I long for love, but I'm filled with so much hate. I'm on the edge of spiraling again and I just can't handle it. I'm putting off so many things just to do nothing. There is no hope. Things get better for a moment, maybe even more, but to the depths I travel once again where my soul lays cold.