Needing to hear good outcome stories

We are coming up on one year from d-day. Things are going very well. I am optimistic, he is 100% open and honest with me. Our therapist sees it, I see it and feel it, but there is always that nagging feeling.

I’m terrified to trust him again. He has done everything he possibly can to prove to me that he is working on himself and our relationship. I have a tendency to pain shop on here. Reading all the stories makes me depressed and scared for my future and my kids future.

I used to be a romantic and believe in happy endings, but now everytime I see a happy couple I think to myself what is he hiding from her. Movies are different now, books, tv shows, the way I see the world has changed.

I guess I’m just looking for some hope here. I need to know it’s possible. I need to believe again. I’m open to stories from both sides. And above all else I need to know that it’s ok that I’m staying. It feels right to me, but I keep thinking what would other people think if they knew. I need support.