Becoming 4b made me question my sexuality, what about you?

Before being 4b I always dated men and desired heterosexual sex. BUT I've also never found men physically attractive. I know it doesn't make sense, but I've always found women more beautiful and attractive than men, and I always admire women's beauty and shapes more. But I've never desired sex with a woman.

Comes my 4b transition two years ago. I've felt really horny for heterosexual sex at first, but men disgust me SO MUCH in every possible way that I just can't. As I said, I've never found men's body physically attractive. The hottest man alive would make me feel nothing. It's always been about the butterflies that come with a touch, about chemistry and spark. Now that there is no more butterflies, chemistry or spark, I'm just left with disgust.

At this point, I have questioned whether I could imagine a relationship with a woman, and comes another layer of realization: I don't want romantic relationships anymore, ever again. With anyone. I don't believe in love and don't desire to feel it anymore. It's a personal stand, of course.

What remains today is an incredible and absolute love for women as gorgeous, amazing, creative, resilient and powerful human beings. I see women journalists, creators, artists, scientists, every day heroes caring for people and making community, and it makes me feel "attracted" to women. I just love women so much. But I think it's more than sexual orientation.

As for sex, I have my toy stash. And sometimes I want it twice a day for a week, only to not want it for 4 months afterwards. That's one of the best parts of 4b. Never to be forced into "maintenance sex" (as someone wrote in another post) again. Ever.

I don't want to figure out what label I should get, I think sexual and romantic orientations are a large spectrum, and it doesn't matter to me anymore because my dating life is officially over. But I wondered if any of you had a similar experience, if you're willing to share. Where do you think you are on the spectrum, and how did 4b influence that?