i can't stand the silence.

i texted you with a different phone number today. to wish you a happy birthday. i also mailed you a letter, i told you that in our messages. i just want to know if you read it. i wrote in it i would understand whatever response i got, but i hate the implication that it includes silence.

silence is indeed a response within itself. but it's so, so, so goddamn suffocating. its funny how space can feel so claustrophobic, how silence can be deafening. i can't stand it.

i should've just told you who i was instead of hiding it and keeping thing vague, but at the same time if i did then chances are i'd just get blocked.

please just talk to me. unblock me. follow me back, anything. im sorry for all the shit i put you through. all i want is to just be friends. to see your face and hear your voice again. please